COVID and what now?
It's been little over a month ago that we decided to close the shop due to the now global pandemic known as Corona Virus, or COVID-19. We closed just before we would find out that all non-essential businesses would be ordered to close their doors and people would be ordered to shelter in place. I don't know if I saw the writing on the wall for what was coming or if it was just coincidence. But I was definitely someone who wanted to bury my head in the sand and not acknowledge the severity of this pandemic.
The first two weeks of the closure I went through probably all 5 stages of grief. I laid in bed, I was angry, I was sad, I was confused, and I let myself fall into a slight depression. But in between the lounging and wallowing, I forced myself to get up and plan. Plan in the moments I had the energy because if we give up, we might as well roll over. I stocked up for myself and friends and family that didn't feel up to going to town. I started to make lists of things I could do around the house that I had been neglecting. And I started to bring this website back to life.
The future is uncertain, I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel, the landscape may look different but there will be a day when we get to freely leave our houses and go back to work. As a small business owner I lay awake at night wondering if we will get to go back to our cute little shop in Duncans Mills. If we will be able to sustain it. I'm holding on so tightly and it irks me to no degree that the help earmarked for small businesses was denied to us, when universities like Harvard, and steak houses like Ruth Chris get millions of dollars in PPP loans. But I can't let that darkness overtake the vision I have for this baby of mine. "Patience and fortitude conquer all things"-Ralph Waldo Emerson. I have never been the most patient of people, Lord knows I try, but I do know how to persevere even in the face of adversity. Even without assistance I will find a way to keep going.
It's interesting because the severity of this pandemic isn't limited to physical health. Mental health, financial security, and planning for the future has all been hit hard with the pause on our normal day to day lives. I know I'm not alone in feeling the effects and hard times. I keep telling myself it could be a lot worse, but it doesn't mitigate the struggle and anxiety I feel. What does help is the number of friends and family I've been able to reconnect with during this down time through social media, telephone, and texts. Technology is a beautiful thing. It's also warmed my heart to have so many people reach out through our store instagram and website, the purchases even small have helped me to hold on to hope. And that's all we can do right now is pray and hope for the best. We are going to come out of this, hopefully stronger, united and more connected than we've been in a long time. Stay healthy and well friends, sending all my best.